So, not sure if it's just me or if others have the same thought. Have you ever just been driving down the road or just listening to music, and thought, "Man this song would go perfectly as background music to my life." You imagine certain aspects of your life as a music video with the song playing. I have these day dreams a thousand times a day. It seems that every time I hear a song I picture myself as part of it. Whether the song is Metallica's Enter Sandman or Brooks & Dunn's Days of Thunder, it doesn't matter. I picture either events that have happened in my life or make up some that could happen in the future. Crazy or not, it helps me pass the time during the day. I love to do it and don't think I could ever stop.
And, what's even funnier as a write this blog, Trace Adkins's song Songs About Me just came on.
It's a sign.
Well, there's a little glimpse into the head of Bear.
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Friday, July 25, 2008
Deployment
A lot of people, after my last post, have asked why I want to have the ability to be deployed. "Wouldn't you be happy not being sent overseas?" Well...yes and no. Of course I would be happy not having to experience war. No one in their right mind really wants to take another person's life. And no one wants to be put in a situation where their life can be taken. I feel the same way. However, I have been trained and prepared to support our current military effort for the last five years. Part of me feels that by not having a chance for deployment will completely null and void the training I received. I know that isn't an entirely true statement, it's just how I feel.
Another part of me doesn't want to be one of the only ones that didn't have a chance to make a difference over there. Whether or not we went over for the right reasons means nothing. We are there and many individuals have given their life in an effort to better this world. I would like that chance too. So many of my closest friends are over there right now. It's the least that I can do to thank them.
"Aren't you scared of being deployed?" Hell yeah I scared! If I wasn't a little scared then I wouldn't be human. I have plenty of dreams about being over there and things happening. I just have to trust myself, my training, and the others around me. And I do.
"Aren't you worried about who you will be when you get back?" Of course I am worried that I will not be the same Bear before and after a deployment. And to be honest, I won't be. No one is completely unaffected by those types of circumstances. In talking to be friends that have been and returned, they are all relatively the same, just with a little different outlook on life. And that is all I can hope for.
I know that not everyone agrees with my thoughts on this subject. And you have every right. I just thought I owed it to you to let you know how I felt. I feel extremely blessed that I have many friends and family members that want to keep my out of harms way. And as my mother always told me growing up, "When it's your time to go, it's your time to go." I could be walking across the street and be hit by a car, or I could be patrolling the streets of Iraq. All I can do is have faith in God that he uses me for whatever purpose.
So thank you all for your concerns. I truelly appreciate and love everyone one of you. You have all been some of my biggest supporters and I hope you can continue to stand by me.
Another part of me doesn't want to be one of the only ones that didn't have a chance to make a difference over there. Whether or not we went over for the right reasons means nothing. We are there and many individuals have given their life in an effort to better this world. I would like that chance too. So many of my closest friends are over there right now. It's the least that I can do to thank them.
"Aren't you scared of being deployed?" Hell yeah I scared! If I wasn't a little scared then I wouldn't be human. I have plenty of dreams about being over there and things happening. I just have to trust myself, my training, and the others around me. And I do.
"Aren't you worried about who you will be when you get back?" Of course I am worried that I will not be the same Bear before and after a deployment. And to be honest, I won't be. No one is completely unaffected by those types of circumstances. In talking to be friends that have been and returned, they are all relatively the same, just with a little different outlook on life. And that is all I can hope for.
I know that not everyone agrees with my thoughts on this subject. And you have every right. I just thought I owed it to you to let you know how I felt. I feel extremely blessed that I have many friends and family members that want to keep my out of harms way. And as my mother always told me growing up, "When it's your time to go, it's your time to go." I could be walking across the street and be hit by a car, or I could be patrolling the streets of Iraq. All I can do is have faith in God that he uses me for whatever purpose.
So thank you all for your concerns. I truelly appreciate and love everyone one of you. You have all been some of my biggest supporters and I hope you can continue to stand by me.
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
In Beginning
So I did it. I finally started a blog like everyone suggested. I figure it can have a few purposes. One, it allows me to keep everyone updated on my crazy life and ever changing plans with work and the Guard. Two, it gives me something to do while I am bored at work. It's not that I don't do work. It's just that I can only take so much of it at one time. Three, it gives me a place to talk about random thoughts and ideas.
So, let me fill everyone one in on my current state and future plans:
I am currently working for the California National Guards Accessions Task Force as an Officer Recruiter. My job is to recruit individuals into the National Guard as Officers. This can be through ROTC as well as OCS. My office is on the Cal Poly campus in the ROTC Department. I can't complain too much about being on campus still. Part of the duties of this job is traveling down Los Alamitos and training potential candidates for OCS. This is completely different than ROTC because we have to ride the candidates pretty hard. We can yell and scream at them to get them ready. It took me awhile to transition into this Drill Sergeant mode, but it can be fun sometimes. Tiring, but fun.
My future plans seem to change on a day to day basis. As most people know I Commissioned as an Aviation Officer and knowingly took a two year wait to get to flight school. Well, two years is a long time. So, in an effort to get trained sooner, as well as have the ability to be deployed, I am making the transition to the Medical Service Corps as a 67J. Basically this means that I am going to become a MEDEVAC pilot. In order for this to happen, I have to wait for my transfer to go through, got to Medical Service Corps training, go to a MEDEVAC unit, and then still wait for flight school. The wait for flying will be roughly the same but I will be at least qualified as a MSC Officer. This allows me to be promoted as well as deployed. Both good things. If my transfer goes through soon, I could be taking off to MSC school as early as end of Sept. I will go to Fort Sam Houston in San Antonio, TX for about 10 weeks. I am actually looking forward to it. I want the training and also love Texas.
Well most of you knew this info but for those who didn't, there it is. Hope to keep everyone updated as much as possible.
BEAR
So, let me fill everyone one in on my current state and future plans:
I am currently working for the California National Guards Accessions Task Force as an Officer Recruiter. My job is to recruit individuals into the National Guard as Officers. This can be through ROTC as well as OCS. My office is on the Cal Poly campus in the ROTC Department. I can't complain too much about being on campus still. Part of the duties of this job is traveling down Los Alamitos and training potential candidates for OCS. This is completely different than ROTC because we have to ride the candidates pretty hard. We can yell and scream at them to get them ready. It took me awhile to transition into this Drill Sergeant mode, but it can be fun sometimes. Tiring, but fun.
My future plans seem to change on a day to day basis. As most people know I Commissioned as an Aviation Officer and knowingly took a two year wait to get to flight school. Well, two years is a long time. So, in an effort to get trained sooner, as well as have the ability to be deployed, I am making the transition to the Medical Service Corps as a 67J. Basically this means that I am going to become a MEDEVAC pilot. In order for this to happen, I have to wait for my transfer to go through, got to Medical Service Corps training, go to a MEDEVAC unit, and then still wait for flight school. The wait for flying will be roughly the same but I will be at least qualified as a MSC Officer. This allows me to be promoted as well as deployed. Both good things. If my transfer goes through soon, I could be taking off to MSC school as early as end of Sept. I will go to Fort Sam Houston in San Antonio, TX for about 10 weeks. I am actually looking forward to it. I want the training and also love Texas.
Well most of you knew this info but for those who didn't, there it is. Hope to keep everyone updated as much as possible.
BEAR
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